Open the eyes of my heart Lord

The past few weeks i have been groaning at the difficult times that i had to go through. Even though i had been strengthened by Jesus at the right times with his life giving words, I felt myself crumbling at the weight of the cross that i was carrying. One day the Lord helped me to meet a friend. It was through her that i came to be more aware of myself from the eyes of God. Which is illustrated in following mail that was sent to me.

The Cross

A young man was at the end of his rope, seeing no way out, dropped to his knees in prayer. "Lord, I can't go on," he said. "I have too heavy of a cross to bear." The Lord replied, "My son, if you can't bear its weight, Just place your cross inside this room. Then, open that other door and pic out any cross you wish." The man was filled with relief said, "Thank you, Lord," and he did as he was told. Upon entering the oter door, he saw many crosses, some so large the tops were not visile. Then, he spoted a timy cross leaning against a far wall. "I'd like that one, Lord," he whispered. And the Lord replied, "My son, that is the cross you just brought in."

how blind i have been. Only looking at myself. Its when I looked around and see what other people are coping with did i actually realize how fortunate I was. My cross through i found it difficult to bear, I know that Jesus will not give me a cross that I cannot carry as he knows my weaknesses. I have stumbled and sometimes fallen in anguish but Christ has always been there for me strengthening ,correcting me and guiding me. Now my prayer is "Open the eyes of my heart Lord"